mylife

next week is crazy man..

haha..let me type a quick entry..tmr i got math test..=/ haha.next week is crazy lar..everyday also got exam..=/

oh well..yest i was studying..haha..then after went Trinity Christian Center for their sat service..i was wearing shorts there lar!cuz i realise i look weird wearing bermudas n sch base shirt..so i ask sonia to bring a skirt..haha..anyway yest during service..i was reminded of God's unfailing love for me..i was so touched by the video..when i saw the father running with the son..a picture came to my mind..when i was weak.when i was down..God carried me and ran my race with me..and i was just so touched that tears started rolling down..

then after that i went to join FUEL..or wadeva they call it..haha.first time joining FUEL..quite interesting..then sth that got me thinking was michelle's question..haha.i duno how we toke till we end up to her question..a question that i shoved it at the back of my head long ago..but now..it is being re-surfaced again.ahah..those who know me shld know what is this question..cuz i have been struggling with this many times..is the question of whether am i suited for my church..the passion is dying down..i m tired..i m tired of being alone there..the only person that kept me staying other than God is my youth pastor..though pastor Siow Hwee may not know it..but he has been encouraging me in a way..that kept me staying...i guess God is faithful..He at least provided someone..my cell..after years..we have drifted futher and further apart.the relationship is no longer as close as before.not to blame them cuz i rmbed what carol told me..as we grow up..our social circle becomes wider..and everybody is so busy with their own lives that we only see each other once a week.we dun even know what is going on thru each other's life..we are not keeping each other in prayer..as a planning comm..we are not walking in the same speed in the same direction..there is lack of support and upholding..we may know what is superficially going on thru each other lives..but what about spiritually?

just when i had these thots in my mind..just when i thot that my cell wants me only for the planning of the camp(that's what i felt last week when i went back.the way everyone toke to me.i was so disappointed)..huimin msged me..at least someone realise i was missing from church..oh well..it kinda encourage me quite a lot..i guess i gotta pray..ahha..anyway gtg study now..bye

posted by HIS child @ 5:47 AM