mylife

children camp!

haha...todae mark the end of children church camp..this camp was rather fun and the children are very cute! even though sum are naughty,sum are very sticky(as in stick to u like sticker!)..haha..but they are all very cute!haha esp when they dance and pray! but handling so many children is not an easy job!especially have to watch over them n c that they will not get hurt..and also muz give them the attention they want...haha...i really am amaze that how God took care of us! all his children!haha..

for the past three days i have really enjoyed myself!haha...watch the kids going up on stage todae and sing those songs with actions..really let me have an indescriptable sense of achievement and joy!
haha..and they rmb u...though they didnt say thank you or wadeva..but they remembered us as gege n jiejie..which i think is enough..haha..i have learnt sum stuff thu the songs and teachings...so which is good lar..haha

hmm..but nowadays i have also been spiritually dry.. i m so tired after the children camp that i didnt even do my daily devotion! haiz..and i juz feel different lar..i think i no longer have the first love for God...it sort of fade away..my passion has sort of disappear into thin air..i seems that lizhen has gone too...as i was singing during band pract todae..it seems that the passion of serving in the music ministry has fade away...i kept reminding myself of the past when i was sooooooo in love with Jesus and juz wanted to do anything He calls me to do and that time after i had a calling from God,i really cant wait to serve Him!but now...all these seems to fade away..and i hate it..last time i use to want to do ALOT of things..but juz had no time..cuz of O levels..but now..got time..but dun feel like doing them liao..arghh...i hate it man....i hate myself for pretending everything is alright when they are not...arghh..where is the first love i had for God..i cant seem to get it back..the feeling of being so in love with God..haiz...

posted by HIS child @ 7:17 AM